Marriage...is what brings us TOGETHER

I've been thinking a lot lately about this marriage thing.  Brennen's on his way back from West Virginia and I kinda miss him..a lot.  Last night as I was about to go to bed (around 11:30) there was this guy yelling  in the street.  Sounded like "MARY!! MARY WHERE ARE YOU?!" or something to that extent.  The street is blocked off due to construction or else he wouldn't be out there.  At first i thought he was just drunk or something.  Then I thought maybe he lost a dog or something.  As the minutes went on, he kept calling for this "Mary" and became more panicked and upset.  Then I thought he might have lost a child.  After a few more minutes of calling and searching, I realize he was looking for his wife.  I could tell when he found her because he became angry.  I was a horrible person and listened in on this whole ordeal.  I wondered if I should call the police or tell them that they needed to go do whatever they needed to do privately so as not to disturb everyone living on that street and so that they would not have the whole neighborhood listening in on their conversation.  But I just found myself listening and praying for them.  I know what that's like.  To have a fight and want to just leave.  Luckily during an argument Brennen has never let me leave--except for once.  He's one of those get-it-solved-here-and-now guys and that has been a great blessing (and sometimes a curse, haha) in our marriage.  Sometimes I get so worked up that I need a little space.  The one time I left, I took my book and headed to who-knows-where.  I ended up at Beaver Dick Park. I don't know why, that's just where I ended up.  Just as I got comfortable in the reclined driver's seat and started reading my book, movement in the rear-view mirror caught my eye.  Well, it was Brennen.  He hadn't followed me, I'd made sure of that.  He found me.  Don't ask me how because I never would have driven to Beaver Dick if I had been anything but upset. And he has been finding me ever since. So I listened to this couple argue in the street.  I couldn't see them, and I couldn't understand anything the woman was saying, but the man was really loud.  Then he started to just sob phrases like "Please don't leave me" and "You are my entire life".  I started to feel like I needed to leave, but I just kept listening and praying (I'm terrible!).
How is it possible to go from this :

To wanting to leave?  Marriage, I don't think, has ever been easy.  Since the beginning of time. Think about Adam and Eve.  The first married couple on earth.  Do you think their marriage was easy?  I don't.  I have had the hardest time with giving up the notion that marriage is never anything less than blissful.  I was so naive.  But I'm grateful for the lessons that life has taught me in the last two years, two months, and three days.  And I'm still learning. My definitions of communication, compromise, love, friendship, compassion, empathy, understanding, appreciation, admiration, and intimacy have definitely changed since the day I got married.  John M. Gottman said in his book The Seven Principles for Making Marriage Work,"In the strongest marriages, husband and wife share a deep sense of meaning.  They don't just 'get along'--they also support each other's hopes and aspirations and build a sense of purpose into their lives together.  That is really what I mean when I talk about honoring and respecting each other" (Gottman, 23).  Pretty profound words if you ask me.  I don't claim to have a perfect marriage.  No one can.  I'm a pessimist.  Listening to that couple last night has really made me think about my marriage and how much Brennen and I have both changed since April 16, 2010.  It has made me really appreciate what we do have, and put a hold on pining for the things we don't have.  I guess the moral of my story is this: No one is perfect, and, therefore, no one has "the perfect marriage."  If you and your spouse are having a rotten time at it, look for the good in your relationship and in each other.  And it never hurts to send a prayer heavenward.

Bliss

Black Cherry snow cone.  That is all.

The Weirdest Thing Happened to Me Today

So I was at work, just screening a donor like normal.  I went to put a pen into the pocket of my lab coat when I whacked my elbow on the little rectangular organizer on the wall.  On the corner too! Can you say owwww!?  I've done this before, and reliving the experience is never pleasant.  So I grab my elbow {still have a donor in this awkward little booth} and say "ow" and whatever.  Next thing I know, I'm fighting to stay standing because suddenly I get crazy lightheaded.  Like seriously.  I usually only get lightheaded after I stand up from laying down for a while, and sometimes it's really bad like I totally loose my vision.  It's kind of funny because everything kinda fades and then I have to try to stay on  my feet and find a wall I can hold on to until it passes. This was worse.   I've never passed out before, but I'm sure I should have.  It was weird to come out of that screening.  I had to sit down because I was still feeling a little woozy.  Weird that a little bump would do that to me.

Doing Nothing

Right now I'm doing nothing.  That's right, nothing.  Hard to believe, right?  Well, believe it or not, that's what I like to do best.  Haha, it's relaxing to just do nothing for a while.  But, I had the day off, so I've pretty much been doing "nothing" all day.  So I decided I would do something.  Blog.  About doing nothing. Some things going on right now:

{1} NBA Finals
{2} Wondering if my friend is REALLY having triplets, or if she just left her Facebook open.
{3} Found my camera!
{4} Looking for cars...still
{5} Learning how to drive stick
{6} My sister-in-law being engaged
{7} Brennen goes to WV on Tuesday
{8} Registering my bro for college
{9} Tearing out the trees that guard our living room window and feeling exposed.
{10} Most awesome road construction in front of our apartment.  Get to drive right past the "ROAD CLOSED" signs to get home..feeling so cool.
{11} Teaching Kindergarten--having difficulty w/discipline because they are so stinkin CUTE!
{12} The "7" key coming off my laptop-again.
{13} Not being able to read AUDREY'S blog! Woman!
{14} I was right...no triplets.

The End.

Mixed Emotions

So, everyone! Good news! Brennen's been applying to P.A. Programs and...He has an interview in two weeks!  To this place:

 

Well, it's in WV.  That's West Virginia.  Like, here:

He would start the program in January.  Here's why I have mixed feelings:

• SOOOOOOO far away
• No student teaching in Idaho :(
• Family is all in the West
• SOOOOOOO far away

Mainly, it's just far away from home.  For two years.  I'll admit it, I'm scared to leave my Mormon bubble.  I like it here.  But a girl's gotta spread her wings and fly, right?  He's almost guaranteed a spot in the program. 1) because it's their first year with the P.A. program, and 2) because they like LDS kids for some reason.  What's not to like, huh? :)  Well, hopefully we get more interviews.  Praying for an interview and acceptance for ISU, but we'll see what the Lord has in store for us. :)

Just a few minutes

Just a few minutes to post about life.  Well, it's pretty busy! I'm officially done at Hillview Elementary and starting the summer school program next week.  It'll be nice to only go once a week instead of three times, but I'll be filling my extra hours with working at the plasma center.  Whoop. Brennen is pretty busy too, he's been doing a lot of shifts in Idaho Falls and stuff to meet his requirements for the Paramedic Program.  This last weekend he went with Air Idaho and ended up on the front page of the "Scroll"--So proud of you, sweetie! Haha.  [For those of you that don't know, the "Scroll" is our school newspaper.]  Lately I have been working on some new recipes from Pinterest..here are picture of my most recent adventure:

I had to crush Oreo cookies into a really fine powder.  

This was the best way to do that.  Biggest. Mess. Ever.

So, these were not just any cookies.  The were Oreo Cheesecake cookies.  That's right. Cheesecake cookies.  Makes your mouth water, right?

The finished product!  They looked delicious! Unfortunately, they looked better than they tasted :(

They were still good, don't get me wrong, but I will stick to my famous snickerdoodles.

So other than that, not much to report.  I lost my camera so these pictures are with my phone...sorry for the bad quality.  We have just been surviving.  We're still looking for a good car, but can't find one that's in our price range.  Right now it's looking like I'm going to have to start to learn how to drive the truck...yay.  I've been asked 3 times in the last month if I'm pregnant...well, i'm not.  I hope I'm not looking like it. Yipes.  Not for a while folks.  Here's my theory.  One person at work asked me, and two people at church.  I don't know where my co-worker got it from but the people at church must have seen me eating a granola bar in the library.  In a married student ward, you don't eat in church unless you're pregnant.  Sorry everyone, 9:30 church doesn't leave me time for breakfast and I'm hungry! Haha.

It's official

My blog is dead.  My pageviews has literally flat-lined.  haha, I guess this is to be expected..I can rarely keep things alive.  Plants, fish, blogs.  Nobody ever give me children!  Haha.  Speaking of which, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! To all you fantastic mommies out there! Especially to my own mommy who has been such a great example to me of hard work and kindness.  And to my wonderful mother-in-law who lets me do my laundry at her house and keep my car in her garage when it's not working.  Happy Mother's Day to all my friends who are mommies!  I'm so grateful for your example and advice (though you might not know you are giving it).  Guys, I cannot wait to be a mom, but you always amaze me with the sacrifices you make and the time you spend with and on your children.  Sometimes I find myself not feeling well and I think to myself, "I don't think I can feel like this for weeks and weeks when I'm pregnant.' Or, "I'm not ready to stay up all night with a screaming baby."  I'm such a wimp, and all the moms out there are my heroes.  Thank you for all you do for us.

"No language can express the power, and beauty, and heroism, and majesty of a mother's love.  It shrinks not where man cowers, and grow stronger where man faints, and over wastes of worldly fortunes sends the radiance of its quenchless fidelity like a star" - Edwin Hubbell Chapin